I found my family, and we both said yes to each other - it's now for sure that I am going to the USA!!
The family is exactly what I was looking for and I think this will be good!

A year,

It can be a long time if you actually aren't happy.
I feel that I have a lot experience of being unhappy (3 years in a school with an education I don't agree with) so I think it would be good for me to do something else. Now I see my bad years as experience - you can't be happy about everything and I hope to make new experiences of life. Either it will be a good or bad year I see it as experience. I think it's good to handle hard situations because you then get more thankful of the good ones.
A year can be a long time - but my challenge is to make it a good time even if it is hard!

Yesterday I talked to the family on skype!
They seem like a perfect match to me and I feel completely calm. The children were friendly and loving, the boy wanted to show me how to make origami - he was so cute! The girl wanted to tell me about their life and everything - they really seem like a perfect family to me! The mother was very talkative and nice, she seems to be a person you can have a lot fun with, I didn't speak much with the father. But they were all very welcoming and talked like they really knew me. I think I found my family!!
They aren't like typical americans (doesn't seem like, atleast) with fast food and cars and so on, and that feels very good to me. The mother said that they wanted european, swedish aupairs because we are often pretty similar in many ways. The mothers parents are from both dutch and germany and the fathers parents from france and germany so they kind of have a connection to europe.
It feels so good that they have experience with earlier aupairs - they knew exactly with rules and they could answer all of my questions.
I am now longing to go to the USA!!

I have now contacted a family I would like to spend my year with.
They seem to be a normal active family with good rules and a good fitting schedule for me. The children are about 11 and 8 years old, so they are pretty independent. At first I wanted the kids I would take care of to be younger, but now I realise what a big difference it is. The work is totally different dependent on the childrens age. The parents seem nice and experienced, persons you can be safe with. They seem like good parents and people you can be comfortable with. Also problem-solvers which makes me relax because problems there will be! They have had aupairs before which is a both positive and negative thing - they have experience but they have also people to compare me with. But I don't see that as a big problem, they seem nice and I am going to talk more with them. If we decide that it could work out it would be very exiting to reed this later on and see how it is like, how different it is compared to my thoughts.

What I know now is that it is very hard not to have expectations. I think of this family a lot now; how would that be? how would they react? What will happend?
I can't help what I am thinking, and wether I want it or not I build up expectations and I will react like: "Oh, that is not what I expected me".

I hope it will be good!
xoxo