This Wednesday we went to the Bruno Mars concert at TD Garden. It feels like years ago I bought the tickets and now the day was finally here. I am not overexcited about Bruno, but it's really fun to see big artists and I like some of his songs. Our seats were almost behind the stage, they were really cheap, but it turned out to be pretty good after all. Se sat close to the stage, closer than many others, and we had a good view. 

We went to Panera Bread for dinner before that. Julia was supposed to come later but when I sat on the train I saw her outside when I came to her station. (Madde and Terese were already there). Julia didn't see me and took a seat across from me. I thought I was funny and didn't say anything at all. After awhile I almost started laughing, cause it felt so wierd sitting almost next to each other without her noticing. So I wrote her a text and said "I can see you", and then she started to look around. It was soooo funny, I couldn't stop laughing and the other people in the train were just staring at me. And then Julia came and sat next to me, laughing and being fake-mad. Funny thing!

I had a salad at Panera and we went in to TD Garden at 8.30 something. The first band had just finished, so we came in perfect time. It was fun. The entire concert was fun! It was good songs (I don't like when they make the songs different from the radio-version which they did too much, but it was fine) and I love the bass. I had my earplugs and was very happy about it. I always forget them when I need them. But now i didn't.

Pictures will come. I am going to pick Arno up from a friend now, but I'll post them as soon as I get home. I haven't made food for the kids in a very long time. Lori is always home, it's good! Cya!

 

Terese and I had a picnic and just hung out in a park close to her house. We bought ice cream at Walgreens and I found a pair of 4th of July-glasses I also bought, don't they look hilarious?

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 We walked along Charles River the day after midsummer. It was really hot and sunny. We were sooo sweaty!

 

Terese stayed at our house all weekend even though Lori and Mirea were home. Saturday morning we went to Cabot's for brunch.

I can see the end of my year comming, and now I try to see all the details I usually don't see so I can remember it. I will take more pictures from now on (at least I hope so).

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Hello.

Here comes 5 minutes of my depressive story.

Now I'm sitting on the floor in my room, after a both good/rough day. First of all, Arno had his moose-presentation at school that I promised him i would go to. But this morning he told me that both his parents were going, so then I figured that would be enough, so I decided to stay home. Arno had said earlier this week that it was the first thing in the morning, so I figured L and C would take him to school. They didn't say anything about it, or well, Charlie asked Arno what time we usually leave, so I figured they would take him. Usually Arno and I walk at 8 in the morning.

I went down to my room, and at 8.15 Arno came down to me and said that his mom had come home from her walk and wondered why we were still home.. Not mad or anything, and we still had time to go to school, but it was just wierd.. So Arno and I walked to school and when I got home the alarm was on and nobody was home. I don't really get it. But whatever, that wasn't a big deal.

When I had my free time during the day I made quinoasalad and put the kids sheets in the washing machine (not sure what Lori would think of that since she doesn't want to heat up the house with the dryer hot days, but I didn't consider it hot today and I don't think the dryer makes the house hot anyway). I skyped with Sofie (it was her birthday!!) which was fun, as always! I love our long talks!

I had lunch and took Vespa out for a walk. When I got home I started to watch "Maria Larssons eviga ögonblick" which wasn't either bad or good (I haven't finished it yet). I called the bus company and cancelled the tickets to NY since I have to work that weekend. I completely forgot to put the kids sheets back when they were ready, but I did that later with Arno so that was no problem. Arno and I had a pretty good time together when he got off school. We played american football and just fooled around. Lori had just bought a new gas-grill and asked if I wanted burgers with them tonight. Sure. I would rather eat my salad in the car while waiting for Arno's gymnastic, but ok. I never have dinner with them, so I think I "owe" them that. While Arno had gymnastics I went to Michael's to buy some wire for our midsummer wreaths. I also bought some sewing kits and an american flag. I had a pretty good day so far.

But when we got home I got really tired and just sick of everything. Arno asked why the table was set for five, which I can udnerstand since I don't eat with them very often, but it still makes me feel like an outsider. When I got up from the basement I overheard Mirea and Lori when they talked about a soda Charlie usually wants. It is on the grocery list but the stores never have the two flavors they have written, so this time I bought another flavor. I heard Lori say "Yeah, Charlie wasn't very excited about that" and Mirea answer "But I would like it"... When you are tired already, that is not what you want to hear.

When I went into the kitchen Mirea said that she had given everybody a napkin; daddy, Arno, mommy and Isabel. Yeah. she said the last aupair. that have happend before, especiallt with Charlie, and I don't really care since I know how many aupairs they've had, but this time it felt humiliating. Everything happend within 5 minutes and it just felt like too much at the moment. As usual, the dinners are really strict and boring. I just sit there and wonder why I agreed to this and the family talk about whatever. This time I really thought that this is both the first and the last time I will live together in another family. It's just annoying to do everything their way and talk this small talk. They don't even know me! Sorry, for all this complaining - but I don't want to disturb Julia on her vacation ;) I have less than 2 months of work, that's what's keeping me up right now. I'm so sick and tired of this!! I know my family is great and I have the best life ever, but you still get tired of it.

Well, I guess I should go to bed and try to get some sleep. Tomorrow will be a better day :) See ya!

 

 

 

 

 It's her graduation today, it doesn't feel like one year ago since it was me.

She was so happy, and I saw it. Skype is pretty blurry and the sound is not perfect, but I could see her and hear some of it and that's all that matters.

 

I just finished the book The last song by Nicholas Sparks.

This week has been pretty hard so far, but I've been trying to focus. The book for sure didn't make anything better. Or maybe it did. It made me feel so sad, but maybe that's exactly what I needed. You have to be sad to be happy again. Right now it's dark outside, warm but dark, and I can hear a bird sing outside my window. I've been sitting in the car for 1,5 hours reading while I waited for Arno's gymnastic to end. I just wanted to cry beacuse the book was so sad, but how would that look when I came inside to pick him up. Instead I finished the book as soon as I got home and sat here crying for, I don't know, the last three chapters? 

I've been working late nights all week so far, which I normally don't do. But it actually made me feel good. I was tired and sometimes - when the kids were loud or didn't listen - I just wanted to get out of there but I am proud of myself for keeping calm. It wasn't that bad, but still. It's just annoying when the kids hang out in my room, playing around and touching my stuff. I have to clean up after them and even though we all know they shouldn't be there at all it just kind of happens anyway. I want to be able to hang out down here, but one thing always leads to another.. and it always ends up worse..

 

It feels like I can focus on myself when I work and don't hang out with my friends. I've been eating healthy and doing my workout, I am happy about that. I've been skyping a lot today which may also be a reson to why I am sad. To hear what you people do at home and thinking about what I would do at home right now makes me feel soo far away. I am really sad I will miss the swedish summer (and I also hate the word SWEDISH, the way americans know sweden is just not right). I want to take bikerides, I want to walk around THE lake, not any lake, I want to wander around in our neighbourhoods and do everything I used to. I know nothing exciting happens at home, but still.

This week will be hard for me I realize that, but I want to fight for my life here, I need some challenge. Everything is just so easy all the time and I need to face hard times to. It feels even better to do it without my friends. And also, I kind of want to spend some time with Mirea before she leaves for her 4 week sleepover camp. She's leaving right after school ends and i won't see her again in four weeks. I know that she likes to pend time with me, just chatting and talking about casual things. She kind of opens up for me and I love to be there for her. I remember how it was in that age and how lost you can be. I can't believe that I came to a family like this one. I love them all, they are awesome.

Now, I'm going to watch the movie The Last Song, to see what I think about it.

Goodnight!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

More ugly pictures!

After the beach we went to Crystal Lake were Julia and I took a swim!! I still can't believe it ;)

Madde lied in the shadow all the time, watching our stuff. Then Julia and I went home to my place to make som salmon dinner with melon as dessert. I like it, as you can see ;)

The weather has been hot, hot, HOT!! I tried to sunbathing in my yard, but I sweated to much. This sunday we went to the beach instead. It was a lot cooler, but it was windy - so windy that the sand blew everywhere which was very annoying. We had sand in out ears, bikinis, bags etc. And our bodies left sand-marks on the towels so you could see exactly where we had been. The beach was ok except from the sand-part, not the best one, but ok.

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It was memorial day and hot outside. We went to B&J for ice cream - yum! After that we went to Fast & Furious 6 which was an incredible good movie! Best I have seen in a very long time!!

When we were on our way home a guy drove out right after us and hit Terese's car. I saw everything but the damage wasn't very big. We pulled over and the guy did too, Terese took his insurance number and she also called her hostdad, but he didn't seem worried. They have hade accidents before and I still don't think he'd called the guy who hit us. However, we are fine and nothing big happend!